I am a never married, very opinionated, Bible-believing attorney.  I am “Auntie Ba” to two nephews and two nieces who I love more than life!  For almost 2 decades I’ve dreamed of adoption.  That dream became stronger when I prosecuted child abuse cases almost a decade ago.  So many children need good homes where they are wanted, safe, and know they are loved.  Still I waited.  I knew it would be best for a baby to be raised by a mommy and daddy.  I knew if I married, my man would have to be willing to adopt.  However, I’m in my late 30s and still haven’t found a partner for life.   I began to consider that over and over the Bible tells us to take care of widows and orphans.  The Bible never says, “Wait until you are married to help others – especially orphans.”  I make a decent income.  I have a modest, but safe home.  But I wondered if I was ready to be selfless enough to be a mother.

On September 9, I couldn’t sleep.  Looking through my Facebook feed I saw this video of Little Fairy Doors.  All of a sudden, for the first time in my life, I had to have this decoration for my daughter.  There was a sudden urgency in my heart to find my child and bring her home.  I began praying (as I had on and off for years) and weeping.  I knew the time was right.  Suddenly my heart was overwhelmed with love for a little person I’d never met.  She might not even be conceived yet, but I could almost see her face in my mind.  She became very real to me and was conceived in my heart on September 9, 2015 at 11pm.  I had no doubt I was finally ready to be selfless for this little one.  I ordered the fairy door and then emailed a Christian adoption agency I’d learned of at a women’s conference six months earlier.  I later remembered that at that conference, I’d felt the Lord ask me if I would trust Him.  The truth is I had stopped trusting Him almost eight years earlier when I prosecuted one of the worst child sex abuse cases I ever saw during my career.  I felt the Lord say to my heart, “We cannot go further, we cannot reach your destiny, unless you choose to trust Me.”  I promised to try.

The day after I ordered the fairy door and emailed the adoption agency, the agency called me…

But that is a story for another post.

Suddenly, I’m trusting God in ways I have not in eight years.  I believe that God has a child chosen just for me.  Please pray for the birth mom.  Pray that she will choose adoption over abortion and pray that she will then choose me to raise her precious child.

P.S. Adoption is expensive.  I know God will provide, but the cost of adoption would heavily tax anyone’s resources.  I’ll be doing a fundraiser, but if you’d like to make a donation to help bring my baby home, please go to my Go Fund Me account:  gofundme.com/babyforBethany